Sunday, October 21, 2007

Follow your Dreams

Kemarin...secara ga sengaja gw nonton Oprah Show. well...bukannya tanpa sengaja sih...secara Oprah show memang salah satu tontonan favorit. Cuma beberapa hari ini memang ga bisa terus2an nonton acara itu, secara Lebaran baru aja lewat n sesuai dengan tradisi yang menyertai hari raya Kemenangan ini, orang terbiasa untuk mudik, jadilah asisten ibuku pulang dengan membawa semua hasil kerja kerasnya di Jakarta dan meninggalkan kita2 semua yang secara mendadak bertransformasi menjadi upik abu versi modern n tanpa omelan...hehhehe...
singkat cerita...akhirnya gw nonton Oprah juga dengan episode yang judulnya cheers for you....
ada satu kisah yang paling menarik buat gw...
tentang wanita kulit hitam yang punya cita-cita untuk jadi dokter n terpaksa harus keputus karena hamil.
lalu dia melahirkan anak sampai 5, tapi keinginannya ga pernah pupus, sayangnya sang suami ga mendukung cita2 dia itu.
akhirnya dia cerai, dan ambil sekolah keperawatan...ga cukup juga...dia lanjut ke sekolah kedokteran...n skarang dia jadi nenek pertama (jangan tertipu dengan frase nenek, karena dia masih sangat muda kok, paling 30-40an) n utang sekolahnya dihapuskan...
F.Y.I.... dia kuliah kedokteran di Yale.
and that's socking me...the reality bahwa apapun keinginan and impian kita, asal kita punya keinginan kuat pasti bisa kita raih.
masalah keuangan, umur dan waktu...ga akan pernah menghentikan kita...asal kita punya tekad yang kuat dan keyakinan bahwa impian itu akan terwujud.
so...what's your dream then?
come on...let's make it true

Thursday, October 4, 2007

living near the ocean

Living near the ocean is quite good, i thought.
When i was a little kid and even until now, i was dreaming that i am gonna lived in the island area.
Maybe in some location such as Bali or Brazil.
What am i gonna done for living then?
i guess am gonna writing my own book, painting, smoking all day, drinking ten different type of cocktail, living with my german shepperd, my parrot, my duck and my iguana. mmmm....i thought that's what i called PARADISE.... :)

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Kamboja

Just want to show you all, my most wanted flower. It called Kamboja in here (Indonesia i meant), dan sebenarnya bunga ini lumayan menakutkan untuk beberapa orang, karena pada umumnya dia tumbuh di komplek pekuburan, jadi kalo tiba-tiba ada wangi kamboja melintas...bulu kuduk suka pada merinding karena mengira ada something passed by.
kenapa gw jatuh cinta sama bunga ini?
it started a long time ago...tempatnya gw lupa dimana, tapi gw liat rumah yang ada bunga kambojanya, warnanya merah-pink gitu.... and am started to falling in love with this flower.

The Hours, House, dreams


After watching The Hours last night....ya ampun. Nicole Kidman tuh oke banget mainnya pas jadi Virginia Wolf. Secara Virginia itu pengarang favourite gw, gw suka banget pas Nicole ternyata mainnya oke banget.
and that's make me imagine...maksudnya, cita-cita gw tuh kan emang pengen jadi penulis, having a life just like Virginia, (tapi bukan bagian depresinya sih)...
well i just thinking that it might be great if am living just like a writer, teaching as a proffeseur, smoking all day and drinking coffee all day.
In my own house, yang idealnya sih...ada unsur airnya (mau kolam ikan, pancuran bambu), ada bunga kamboja Thailand or India yang warnanya merah itu, ada my writing corner....
mmmmm.....
what a great life that am going through then.... :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

arguing on sunday

imagined that all people in the world living together in peace and harmony. imagine that there's no difference between us. Imagined that....okay i guess i imagined something tooo much and could't found a way to solved it.
jadi melantur....
actually everything beginning when....
two days ago....hari minggu tuh berapa hari yang lalu ya? so...ceritanya abis mengalami pagi yang luar biasa menyebalkan...gw balik ke kamar n muter my cd player and nyalain dupa mujarab gw buat ngilangin segala kekesalan. jadi gw muterin Enya n nyalain dupa green tea n baca buku tentang...buddhisme.
well...gw mulai berasa aga tenang....sampe out of the blue...one of my friends call me and asking me "hey ran what are you doing?"
terus gw jwab..."lagi ngilangin BT nih"
dia jawab "caranya?"
gw jawab "dengerin Enya, bakar dupa wangi n baca buku"
dia jawab "buku? buku apa?"
gw jawab "oh buku tentang Budha gitu deh"
dan jawabannya dia (yg bikin gw bingung) "ngapain baca buku tentang Budha? you're a moslem right?"
sumarry: apa hubungannya kepercayaan gw ama buku yang mau gw baca? emangnya kalo gw muslim terus gw ga boleh baca buku tentang Budha, Hindu, Taoisme, Kaballah n alkitab gitu?
the next thing yang dia bahas adalah...kebiasaan gw dengerin enya, n bakar dupa. dia bilang itu tidak baik n tidak dibenarkan dalam...guess what...Islam
hellooooo.....setau gw ga ada ayat dalam Al-Qur'an yang bilang kalo satu lagu itu tidak baik n dupa itu tidak baik.
terus...jadilah kita debat...dan semakin narrow minded lah dia mempertahankan argumentnya...gw juga bukannya orang yang open minded sih...cuma gw tuh akan menuruti orang yang bisa ngasih penjelasan yang masuk akal mengenai kenapa gw ga boleh ngelakuin satu kegiatan.
akhirnya....hari minggu itu gw tetep BT...ampe my beloved friends dateng n saved my day :)

Monday, June 18, 2007

Lady in Misery

Gw suka heran deh ama orang-orang yang ga bisa jaga fasilitas umum. kenapa geto loh... itu tempat kan dipake buat rame2...

tapi knapa ga bisa dijaga, knapa harus dikotorin and knapa harus dirusak?

kadang2... percaya apa nggak... orang2 yang seenaknya itu adalah orang yang pnampilannya...keren.

kayak yg pernah gw alamin di setiabudi building 21.

ceritanya kamar mandi dipake ama kk gw, seorang perempuan (yg kita sebut aja sang Lady) and gw.

pada saat kk gw masuk, kamar mandi itu bersih, kering...lalu masuklah sang Lady ini...cantik, modis dengan aroma parfum angel yang lembut itu...she's trully an angel at that moment...

kemudian setelah dia keluar...masuklah gw...dan astaga naga...guess what i saw...

kamar mandi itu menjadi becek, tisu ada di kloset and tisu sisanya pada basah pula.

please deh...dia langsung berubah menjadi lebih buruk dari devil...

kasian kan...gimana kalo dia punya cowok and cowoknya tau kebiasaan buruknya...bisa il-fel deh tu orang.

tp kemudian gw dan kk gw berusaha untuk positif thinking...mungkin dia lagi buru2...jadinya keadaan di dalam wc menjadi kacau beliau gitu.

tapi kemudian kita bertemu sang lady lagi di loby 21...and guess what...dia ga terburu2, dia ga dikejar deadline...dia sedang berkasih-sayang...dan bersama sang jagoan...dia berjalan keluar 21 dan dia...membuang tisu di lantai...

O.M.G

my Dreams

*i dreamed about walking under the rain....
*i dreamed about sitting in a bench and watching a goose swimming (so sweet)
*i dreamed about going around the world only companied by my music instrument and my laptop
*i dreamed about being hugging by my man in a cold night, do nothing, just sitting under the moon, counting the stars, take my deep breath and voila...i smelt his scent...my love ones scent...the felt of warmt...more comfort than thousand blanket
*i dreamt about playing in a beach with my dogs (idealnya sih anjingnya herder hehehe)
*i dreamt about having an apartement in floor 6 or 8, so i could see jakarta rythm in the night and the sky in one package
*i dreamt about writing and publish my own books, fiction and non-fiction
*i dreamt about eating apple pie and ice cream on top, companied with hot coffee and milan kundera's book
*i dreamt about drink a tea, near the sea, and having a deep and long conversation with Muhammad (my prophet, my idol, the love of my life beside my God, Allah the allmighty-> for both of you i would sacrifice my life), jean monet, condoleeza rice, milan kundera, frida kahlo, pramoedya ananta toer, soeharto (well i could learn a lot about strategy from him), alejandro sanz, virginia wolf, pablo neruda, kurt vonnegut
*i dreamt about swimming, dancing, joking, cooking, sleeping and playing all the time with my future kids...when will you came? i miss you allready my children (i wished god trust me to have and take care of children, my own child)
*I dreamt about my future husband, how's we're gonna be a great partner, and how much i'm gonna miss him even if he just left for 5 minutes, and how my love will be bigger and bigger everytime i saw him playing with the children
*i dreamt about peace and love in the world, and how people free to declare themself whoever they are, without being fear to be punished by society
*i dreamt about my wedding, whatever it's gonna be held, it's not important for me, the most important is...i'm standing there and see my man's face, the one who i trusted, the one who i will followed, my knight in shining armour, father of my children, the one that my parents trust to taking care of their difficulty, stubborn and unpredictable daughter
*i dreamt about sleeping in a white and blue room, with a white rose and lily all over the room, what a room
*i dreamt about dream all the time....